There's something about me. I am easily attracted to any men. Kalau lelaki they call 'pencinta wanita'. Tapi kalau untuk perempuan cemana?

Well actually i don't like the fact that i easily attracted to men. But let just take it positive ok. We see it as an ability.

Tapi aku pun ada satu prinsip ni yang memang aku tampal elok2 dalam hati aku (siap pateri lagi. biar permanent) Aku takkan percaya mana2 lelaki selagi dia belum jadi part of my family. Yup, i have this trust issue and this syndrome, i hope, will save me for my future.

Aku jenis yang tak percaya dengan couple2 sekarang yang kata diorang akan kahwin. Bagi aku itu semua bullshit. Eh, come on lah. Baru budak sekolah dah berangan sampai macam tu. Girls, kita kena ingat. Pemikiran kita tak sama dengan pemikiran lelaki. They just want to have fun. That's our fault. We take serious in everything including our own feelings. Dan secara tak sengaja, we have betrayed ourselves. We let ourselves hurt.

So, why not, we play it like them?

Well, aku tak cakap kosong. Di sini aku sertakan beberapa alasan kenapa aku kata macam tu;

-ada jenis manusia yang cepat bosan
-budak sekolah takde duit
-they are too early to make any commitment
-belum matang
-they don't know how to be responsible
-the most important thing: IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE AT ALL

aku boleh bla lagi bagi orang yang tak berharap sampai nak kahwin. Aku boleh bla lagi kalau couple ni dah besar dan ada duit dan tahu tanggungjawab and dah matang (lol banyak nya syarat). Ni tak. Berhingus lagi, berangan "till jannah" bagai.

Pui!

Aku ada kenal sorang budak ni. Her thoughts sangat berbeza dengan aku. Dia kata sia2 je lah couple kalau setakat nak break je? Well, kalau nak kata pasal sia2, couple tu sendiri dah sia2. So, why you did it at the first place?

To be precise, aku tak kisah pasal kau punya love story pon. I mean, kalau kau nak berjanji sampai ke lubang kubur ke, sukati hang la. Tapi masalahnya aku perempuan. Aku tahu how will they react when they face break-ups. Bila kau dah berjanji sampai langit ke tujuh, kau punya harapan tu sampai langit ke lapan hang tau dak? walau setomboi mana pun perempuan tu, dia still period setiap bulan. Maksud aku, walau perempuan tu lagi sado dari malek nor, dia still seorang perempuan. Nak taknak dia akan ada jugak feeling sebagai seorang perempuan.

Ok, sebenarnya aku out of topic sikit ni (banyak sebenarnya).

Well bagi aku, lelaki yang betul2 attracts aku bila dia dah matang. Bila dia dah pandai fikir untuk kebaikan orang lain jugak. Bila dia tak malu nak pakai wedding ring dia. Bila dia tak malu nak rendahkan ego dia sebagai lelaki. Bila dia layan anak2 dia with the shallow eyes. Bila they show their love.

Those lipat kemeja sampai ke lengan, pakai jam, pakai songkok, ada jambang dan misai (ok, that's for me), pakai baju melayu, etc. All those things are just the bonus part.

(tapi tak bermaksud aku suka laki orang. no no no no no no no no no no!)

Sebab tu aku suka tengok orang yang dah kahwin ni. Their loves are a bit different. Less risk, more commitment. And their love lebih terjamin. And they love each other for who they are. They accept all flaws together. They share everything. And they not ashamed for being themselves infront of their partner. Yet their partner think it's cute.

And that's sweet enough.

So dont worry for those yang tak pernah couple, or rasa macam they are not attracted. Trust me, you'll find a partner soon. And that partner is way much better than you've ever thought. Because your future partner picks you because of your nice attitudes, not because of your face.

Pernah dengar, "orang bercinta ni buta"?

And that's how i define love is blind.

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